These are the things that give me anxiety and are pulling me down:

- My grandma might die soon
- My parents are getting older and I don't get to spend much time with them anymore - I'm petrified that they will die soon.
- My dad just wants to spend time with me but Im being pulled in so many directions I barely spend time with him. I miss him so much.
- My mom is the only one who gets me. But that terrifies me. I love her so much but she is a huge source of trauma for me.
- My sister is toxic but also depressed and hates that I don't hang out with her more. I hate that too.
- My partner is depressed and stresses me out. I love her so much but I don't know if she is manipulating me emotionally. I hate not really knowing.
- My partner hates how inept at sexual intimacy I am. I resent that she doesn't understand why.
- Money - I dont make enough of it. I just want to be able to take care of my parents.
- My career feels like its going nowhere because I cant focus 100% of my energy on it - I only have so many spoons and I resent that fact
- Everybody wants something from me and I always feel like I'm scrambling to keep up
- I'm emotionally exhausted. I can't deal with this anymore. Im being crushed.
- I can't settle on an artistic style
- I have no friends because I have no energy to make/keep them.
- I over extend myself and over work myself so I don't think about any of these things - until they are brought back up, and my emotional response is out of control.